For the past couple months I've been struggling with the concept of trust. No, I didn't say I was struggling with trust, but the concept of it. The dictionary definition of trust is: verb: to rely upon or place confidence in someone or something. noun: reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.
In my mind, when you say you trust someone, when you really truly trust someone, it means you could tell them your deepest, darkest secret, and have confidence that they would keep it a secret, or that if this said secret was something that needed to be brought to light, and they did so, you would accept that, and still trust them in that they did what was right. Did I loose you? I think I lost me. Anyway. Trust is something that is built over time, not grown in some lab overnight. To rely on a persons integrity, to rely on a persons ability, surety, to put your confidence in someone other then yourself. Thats not something to be handled lightly. This is your life we're talking about. Right? Funny thing is, this thing called trust could take years to build up, could take a lifetime. But with one slip, one misstep, it could all be lost, just like that. Or, could it be a choice to throw it away? Why is it the things we work so hard for, really on both ends, can be lost so easily? And once deception enters, once the trust is broken, the confidence lost, can it ever truly be completely built back. Would forgiveness ever completely erase something so devastating? If sin never entered the world, would we even have to deal with the whole idea of trust? I guess that question is pretty irrelevant 2000 some odd years later.
Like I said in the beginning, I'm not having trust issues. I'm not even really having issues with the concept of trust I guess. I suppose I'm really just wondering how one could spend so long building something, and then choose to throw it away. Maybe it wasn't a true choice, but when we look back the choices we made that led up to it were all choices we made.
I enjoy, and am SO ridiculously thankful for the people I have in my life that I can trust without even having to think about it. Trust is a powerful thing, don't make light of it.
