Old People Priorities.

The past few weeks have been like a game of Jenga. Let's see how many things we can pull out of Jo until she comes crashing down. Let's see how many bricks we can put on top of her before she caves under the pressure. GOSH. I always knew I didn't like that game. 

In the past, lets say... two weeks, I've learned a lot. Usually when you pray for something... You're not going to get the answer you expect. Friends rock. Dads... well I can't even go there yet... And through it all, God continues to amaze me. 

Recently, I've been feeling more and more... old. Not old like coughing, dying, wrinkled old, but growing up, feeling like I need to step it up old. I've been out of a job for basically since last march. Somehow every month I've been able to pay my phone bill, and any other expense that may have arose in that time. More recently though, I've been terribly strapped. The wonderful awesome baby-sitting job that I thought I had... let's just say I gave up on. I've been more seriously job hunting, and have applied to three places in the past few days. Here's where my point of the title comes in. haha. 

The idea of a long needed vacation came up when a friends aunt came up from another state, and liked her nieces friends so much, she invited them to come down for a week. Now to a parent, the idea of their child, even though they may be 18, driving 16+hours that far away from home isn't very heartwarming. So of course, the teenagers that we are came up with a different plan, more parent friendly. But when I was invited on this trip, I, instead of jumping on this opportunity to hang out with awesome friends, thought, "crap, I don't have a job, I can't go off having fun when I don't even have a job to pay for these things, I can't continue to ask my parents for money for these things.. I need to find a job..." So instead of jumping on this idea... all these things started lining up in my head. Sadly, a vacation with friends was at the bottom of this list... I answered them with a "If I don't have a job I can go... I guess..." Gosh, what a crappy friend I feel like. It's not that I don't want to hang out with them, I do... but I'm starting to see all these "Priorities" in my life, and starting to see where they fall, and more importantly, seeing them fall where they should be. 

Yes, there's more to the reasons I hesitated in my answer then just I need a job. No, I'm not gonna talk about them, mostly because I don't have the words to at this time. My friends gave me a time when I need to give them an answer by, and I'm trusting that if I'm supposed to go with them, that I won't hear back from these jobs until after I return.

I guess knocking over my game of Jenga multiple times is God's way of humoring Himself? heh, I guess as long as He keeps playing I'm ok with that...